April 24th 2020
Woke up completely unmotivated to do anything. Lounged around with the dogs for a couple of hours in bed on my phone, and then made coffee and decided to blog.
Writing always helps me release a lot of the tension I have building in my head. Writing a simple poem, or an entire blog post keeps my sanity. Words are a fulfilling way for me to express myself. I’m not particularly a great artist through painting or singing, but words have always been an easy flow for me.
I wrote all the time in high school and college – random thoughts or stories – and I’m glad I have found that passion again.
As I was blogging and going through emails and text threads I saw a post on Facebook from one of my sorority sisters that she has a miscarriage. I was so heartbroken for her – but her vulnerability to put herself out there was encouraging! It also prompted me to reach out to her on the side and follow up with how she is doing, how her husband is doing, and if she needed anything.
It was nice to chat for a little bit – even if the reason the conversation started was because of a loss. It was nice to reconnect on a level that was deeper than a thumbs up or a “haha”.
There was something inside of me that was hurting as well. I needed to keep writing to get my mind focused on positivity.
Hours of blogging and still not finished!
It was time for a snack….
I bought the licorice at Ray’s the day before – and it reminded me of my friend TK from High School. I tried to text him a photo of it but it said that the number was a landline!! What?!
I decided to try to call to see if he had changed his number for some reason… He answered! He said he DID receive the photo of my licorice.
ANOTHER great conversation with someone I haven’t talked to in a very long time. My love tank was full!! We chatted for a good 45 minutes about random stuff here and there, a few memories, his dad, his mom, my parents, our houses, significant others, and everything in between!!
It was starting to get late and my husband was in the other room watching the second day of the NFL draft. He was talking with a friend on the phone so I decided to head upstairs for bed and watched the additional interviews of the people involved in the show TIGERKING. It was pretty good! It wasn’t as in depth as I thought it was going to be, but it made me want to drive down to Oklahoma and punch Joe Exotic in his ear with all the piercings so make it really sting!!!
I had a text from Z about going to work on Monday – there were a lot of packages that arrived that need to be checked in. That made me feel a little better… I get to go back to work on Monday!!
I was really missing my mom. I wanted to drive to her house and give her a hug. I was debating doing that but decided to stay home and send her a couple of silly memes in a text instead. It made me chuckle, and reminded me that we’re all in this together.
Is there anyone in particular that you are missing the most? Or an activity that you miss the most? Are you able to find different avenues to fill that void during this?